And Pyrates is still a big group? Excellent.

I ahve been struggling with a sickness for some time, and kept it silent. It is not something to take lightly and I hope all can understand.

All I can ask for is support, prayers, and hopes that I shall return full force kicking again.

Please do not give up on me. It has been a long, rocky road and it's been tough to face.

Until we cross paths again.

The Ghost of Cutthroat

~With honour, I lay my sword down at your humble feet,
I back away, bowing out gracefully,
for I have at last, finally claimed defeat.
without a tear shed, without one final word,
I take a deep breath, turn, and head towards
the golden, blinding door.

The crowd remarks muttered,
my thoughts are all blocked out,
I know when I have lost, my friend,
and that is, without any doubt.

Wanting to cling on
to any shred of hope I had,
was all in vain,
but to have had that one chance of victory,
with you, I am eternally glad.

Now the fates have turned,
and was not meant to be,
but wishing to cross paths one day,
on the shores of a beautiful sea.

I can only wish well for you,
as you can wish for me,
for you have been kind to me,
but, alas, was not meant to be.

Farewell, adieu,
mayhaps one day we shall meet,
but when that day comes,
I know that I shall once more
lay my sword down at your feet.~

I have been sick off and on these past couple of weeks. I have been online every so often, but haven't been sitting there very long.
I have a weird infection in my left arm that started up while I still had an upper respitory infection.
I know this is gross, but the infection started out under my arm pit, very sore, and made my hand go numb every once in a while. That went away,but has started back near the original spot, and in 3 other places close. I haven't been able to fully lift my arm because of the soreness of my muscle, tenderness and swelling. I don't know what caused it, but I go tomorrow to find out.
I have no insurance and have been putting it off thinking it would go away. So I go to the health dept and hope to get it taken care of and put on antibiotics so I don't get it again.

When I have been online, it has all been one handed typing, luckily with the hand I write with, and my typing still sucks.
I love you all and haven't forgotten about you, just so you know.
If you would like to contact me anytime, please feel free to email me here:
cloverpogue@yahoo.com
I always check my mail.

*Squishes to all*
Your ever humble, Capn'.

So, when do I get them, it's alot of spankings, you know. :P

I am so not looking forward to it, it is not funny. I am a roller coaster of emotions and I feel like I have driven away those who even seem to care. Why me? I have given up, I surrender...do what you will for I don't have it in me to fight back anymore...